widow – Adventures of Life, Death, Love & Light

I Hate That…

Tonight was a mother f*%^ing sh*tshow.

Charlie got to be pitcher & I wish I could tell you…

Tonight, my youngest, Charlie, got to be pitcher. This is something he has been itching to do and talking about non-stop for two weeks. I quickly grabbed my phone & started snapping pictures. Without thinking I thought, “I can’t wait to send these to Jess. He’s going to be so excited!!” Then it hit me.Continue reading “Charlie got to be pitcher & I wish I could tell you…”

Duality

DUALITY — When 2 opposite things can be true at the exact same time.

Forever & For Always

As with all other things in this world that I know have complex mechanics & science to make them work, but I cannot begin to understand….

ThAnK YoU ❤️

Care for me & my boys. That was the plan. Protect them. Be there for them.

I Hate It

I Hate it. I LoVe YoU.

Rules of Grieving — Wait; WhAt?!?

Spoiler Alert—- this post contains spoilers for Grey’s Anatomy. Specifically seasons 11/12. Do not read if you do not want to know what happens!!!

The Lone Survivior

It’s so strange being the only one left. So many memories shared and I have no one who shares them with me. It’s like a ghost life.

He was My Person

For a long time, Jess Sr was my person. The person. The one I found who also found me and was slated to be with me forever and ever.

Situation

Merriam Webster: “circumstances at a certain moment : a critical, trying, or unusual state of affairs : PROBLEM” “An example of situation is having to decide between two jobs.” ~yourdictionary.com My children and I are not a “situation” For you to come at me with “what a horrible situation you are in” is Incredibly Insulting.Continue reading “Situation”