I mean, I didn’t wait. I had someone, I was young & I fall hard & quick, so, that happened.
We had a WHOLE FUCKING LIFE that we thought would last a lifetime. It did. But that wasn’t what we thought it would be exactly.
Then he died & I was alone.
I was NoT Ok.
And then it was.
I was ok.
I would venture to say I was Really Fucking Good actually.
I met you.
I was Fucking Fine before you.
I was GooD to Mother Fucking Go.
I Knew you.
I could no longer UnKnow you.
I didn’t want to.
I kept getting to know you.
Some things, I didn’t like so much, so I started a “Reasons I Love You” list to remind me when we fought why I did. Trying to love Smarter, Not Harder.
I’ve never needed it for that & I add to it almost daily.
Most things pointed toward you being one of the Good Ones.
I just didn’t know you well enough to understand it all.
Now, I do.
And all of it only makes me Love You More.
All of the things that I should put in that “not so great” column, somehow eventually end up in the “actually, this is why & it makes perfect sense” column.
I have tried to make a list of the things I will inevitably end up hating you for.
I have made the list, but you keep crossing them off, one by one.
I only love you more for each one.
With all of your things. All of your, “I don’t understand, but damn, when I do, it makes perfect fucking sense” things.
I don’t even know why I even question things anymore. I really don’t. I know everything in your life has been thought about, dissected, analyzed, & thought about again and then again before you ever made a move.
It makes me giggle, but also makes so much sense.
I am Incredibly Impatient.
YOU are Quite the Opposite.
They say opposites attract, but I never could have imagined you & I with this chemistry.
As with all other things in this world that I know have complex mechanics & science to make them work, but I cannot begin to understand, I accept it, As Is, no questions asked, as MaGiC.
Something meant to be.
For no other reason than it is destiny.
We are meant to be together.
In any space & any time–
We. Would. Be.— No Matter What.
I have no explanation.
It just Is & Always Will Be.
And that is all I ever need to know.
We Always Were.
We Always Will Be.
I LoVe you Forever & For Always.
Through any dimension.
I will search space & time forever to always be with you. ❤️
MAKE GOOD CHOICES.
~Love & Light, Sarah