Forever & For Always

I mean, I didn’t wait. I had someone, I was young & I fall hard & quick, so, that happened.

We had a WHOLE FUCKING LIFE that we thought would last a lifetime. It did. But that wasn’t what we thought it would be exactly.

Then he died & I was alone.

It Sucked.

I was NoT Ok.

And then it was.

I was ok.

I would venture to say I was Really Fucking Good actually.

Then…

I met you.

I was Fucking Fine before you.

I was GooD to Mother Fucking Go.

Then…

I Knew you.

And—

I could no longer UnKnow you.

I didn’t want to.

So…

I kept getting to know you.

Some things, I didn’t like so much, so I started a “Reasons I Love You” list to remind me when we fought why I did. Trying to love Smarter, Not Harder.

I’ve never needed it for that & I add to it almost daily.

Most things pointed toward you being one of the Good Ones.

Turns out…

I just didn’t know you well enough to understand it all.

Now, I do.

And all of it only makes me Love You More.

All of the things that I should put in that “not so great” column, somehow eventually end up in the “actually, this is why & it makes perfect sense” column.

I have tried to make a list of the things I will inevitably end up hating you for.

I have made the list, but you keep crossing them off, one by one.

And…

I only love you more for each one.

With all of your things. All of your, “I don’t understand, but damn, when I do, it makes perfect fucking sense” things.

I don’t even know why I even question things anymore. I really don’t. I know everything in your life has been thought about, dissected, analyzed, & thought about again and then again before you ever made a move.

#YouTime

It makes me giggle, but also makes so much sense.

I am Incredibly Impatient.

YOU are Quite the Opposite.

They say opposites attract, but I never could have imagined you & I with this chemistry.

It’s Unrealistic.

Unreasonable.

Impossible.

But somehow…

It Works.

As with all other things in this world that I know have complex mechanics & science to make them work, but I cannot begin to understand, I accept it, As Is, no questions asked, as MaGiC.

Something meant to be.

For no other reason than it is destiny.

We are meant to be together.

In any space & any time–

We. Would. Be.— No Matter What.

I have no explanation.

No Rhyme.

No Reason.

It just Is & Always Will Be.

That’s it.

And that is all I ever need to know.

We Are.

We Always Were.

We Always Will Be.

I LoVe you Forever & For Always.

Through any dimension.

I will search space & time forever to always be with you. ❤️

MAKE GOOD CHOICES.

~Love & Light, Sarah