The thought of another. The thought of an after. The thought of a future. That was never a thing. It was so far out there that I didn’t ever consider it as a possibility. It wasn’t in my mind. It wasn’t in my plan.
Care for me & my boys. That was the plan. Protect them. Be there for them. Somehow give them a life in which we can honor their father and I can give them the positive male role models they need to become good, kind, smart, well-rounded men. People we can all be proud of. People I can proudly exclaim, “I raised them. They are mine & they are good.”
That was the only thing I cared about.
Then came you. You were everything I never knew I always needed. You didn’t want or need me. You had your life handled & your life was good. You are a good man with good morals. You never wished to replace their dad & you never will. And that is completely acceptable. You were never meant for that.
You were meant to be exactly who you already are. A GooD person. Kind. Loving. Patient. Accepting. More understanding than I ever was.
Appropriately guarded from past experiences & acceptionally good at keeping your walls up. Stubborn to say the Very Least. But willing to move when you deemed it appropriate.
Time doesn’t heal all wounds – some wounds will never heal. Time does remind us we are still here. We must keep going. We must move forward even in the times we don’t want to. So, we do. We move forward. Things change. Things are different forever and for always, but some things do change for the better.
We meet new people. Good, Amazing people. We build new relationships we never even dreamed we’d ever have and for that, I am thankful.
I am thankful for you. The man who came after. The man who understands the duality in which we all will live forever. The man who does not wish to compete with a dead man, but who still wishes to be an exemplary example for me & my boys.
No matter how much you don’t want to be recognized for it or admit it, you are our hero. You are an incredible human who sets an exceptional example for our children every day & we are Lucky & Grateful for you.
I love you So Much & cannot imagine life without you. Thank you. ❤️
MAKE GOOD CHOICES.
~Love & Light, Sarah