When I was a child, I imagined being an adult.
Not what I would look like; Not what I would do for a living…
Unbeknownst to me, I was imagining a feeling.
A feeling of utter CaLm. That’s what becoming an adult meant to me.
When I was a child, I watched my parents be happy, fight, & everything in between. The greatest love story of all time involved a little bit of everything. My parents had the “thing.” Whatever that thing is that we all wish to have, they had it. They still do. I had no idea what it was, but I wanted it and never even knew.
I didn’t know –
Until I felt it.
Even then, it took me a long while to process.
When I was a child, I witnessed more than my fair share of marital squabbles. More than my fair share of Loving Embraces. Far More than my fair share of gross, lovey gestures & uncomfortable dinner conversations between my mom & my dad because my dad got a chuckle out of it and it made my mom completely uneasy in front of her kids (LOL). Little did I know, I was witnessing “the feeling”
Feeling completely and utterly safe.
C A L M
I So Wish I could say I felt this alone. I thought I had. I thought I was GooD.
But I wasn’t.
How was I to know that I hadn’t until I did?
When I was a child, I longed to feel —
Safe from the Cruel world.
Safe from the Mean & the Hate.
Safe from the Madness.
Yes, it exists. A certain calm and safe that I never knew existed before this.
A sense of Calm.
A sense of Peace.
A sense of Wonder.
and all of a sudden, I am right where I was always supposed to be.
MAKE GOOD CHOICES.
~Love & Light, Sarah