Grief and the Holidays: What I’ve Noticed So Far

I can’t help but feel I’m doing this wrong. Jack just asked me what his brothers’ “big gifts” this year are and I had to explain to him I didn’t do anything crazy expensive or awesome, I just picked something I got them to spotlight. I almost burst into tears. “That’s ok. That’s totally fine,”Continue reading “Grief and the Holidays: What I’ve Noticed So Far”

Help! I Need Somebody! A Look into Asking for Help & Doing Things on Your Own

Let’s face it, no one can make it in this world alone. I don’t care who you are or how amazing you are, everyone needs someone at some time for something and that’s ok. That’s actually a good thing! We are all put on this earth with special talents that we should use to helpContinue reading “Help! I Need Somebody! A Look into Asking for Help & Doing Things on Your Own”

Things You Should Know about My Trauma from the Death of My Husband

Crazy title, I know, but I didn’t really know what else to title it. Things you should know? Reasons I am the way I am? Well, when it comes to this subject and grief, there are so many things I wish so many people knew or would know or could comprehend, but that is like,Continue reading “Things You Should Know about My Trauma from the Death of My Husband”

My kids told me they wish I were dead and I’m ok with that.

“Momma, if I had to choose which parent I wanted to die, I would have chose for you to die.” Cool, dude. That’s freaking awesome. Not exactly the words you want to hear come out of your 8 year old or 5 year old’s mouth. But, I’m ok with it. This is all part ofContinue reading “My kids told me they wish I were dead and I’m ok with that.”

And then there were 4….

The story of the day my husband died. The Voirols were a family of 5. Mom, Dad, Jack, Jess Jr. & Charlie. Our lives were far from perfect, but when Jess Sr. & I were hanging with our boys; those were the best days. Jess Sr. & I had separated in September. Jess Sr. hadContinue reading “And then there were 4….”

The best friend I ever had is dead.

The best friend I ever had (my husband) is dead. For a long time, it was hard for me to remember he was my best friend. I promise you if you had asked me who my best friend was when he was alive, he would not have been the first name out of my mouth.Continue reading “The best friend I ever had is dead.”